There are days we wake up feeling like nothing can stop us. We laugh, we dance, we sing and spend time with the ones we love. A thankful sigh of relief is released from deep inside and we can’t help but smile.
And then a discussion begins. Truths are told that were hidden in the background and Satan begins to circle like the prowling lion he is. Words are whispered and hearts become burdened all in a matter of minutes. The mountain you were on top of a little while ago suddenly cracked open from the blow you took to the gut. You slid quickly into a valley you weren’t expecting.
Haven’t I been through enough? Have you not watched me crawl from one valley to the next, hanging onto Your promises? I’ve seen those around me succeed and advance in life while I’m still fighting to stay alive.
How can this be? I want to understand, I want to encounter You. This trial seems too big for me to even begin to manage. I want to do more for my family Lord, do more for you. I want to set things straight and be out from under this bondage that has held me for almost a decade.
Please God, do not leave me. Help me take one breath and then another. Reveal yourself to me in ways only you can. I need you to get me through this because I know without You-I won’t make it.
Please don’t sit silently as we begin this journey toward freedom. Help me to not look back at my past and wish I was there. At least I knew what I was getting into, at least the mess was comfortable. But where you have me now is scary, unpredictable, and radical.
Help me get out of bed each morning with renewed purpose to fight for my family and not cower from the unknown. Remind me that I am your daughter; that you will never leave me.
Please help me to not grow weary but to run this race with my eyes on you and not my trial for you are bigger than all of it. You knew this was coming and you have a plan.
Help me to believe in that truth.
Rest in that truth.
Bathe in that truth.
In Jesus’ name,