You have circled this mountain long enough; now turn North. ~Deuteronomy 2:3
For years I’ve struggled with an addiction to food. It was my comfort when I experienced intense emotions and circumstances that I would rather not deal with.
I went on my first diet in high school and have been in a love/hate relationship with food ever since.
I have read countless books, joined online programs, attended meetings, and participated in private groups.
My head wanted to so badly to be rid of this affair with food, but my heart could not let it go.
One afternoon I came across the above bible verse used by Lysa TerKeurst in her book, Made to Crave. The power I felt when reading it struck me in a way I wasn’t expecting.
I’ve made many excuses for my actions and always circled back to the idea that I just can’t break the habit. But God firmly said to me while reading that verse, You’ve done this long enough Sarah, turn away. Be done. It’s over.
I pondered over this message while still sneaking food and eating when it wasn’t necessary.
Then in January I had a wake up call. The largest pair of jeans I owned were too tight for me to wear comfortably. I hung my head in shame and began praying for relief.
God kept bringing a particular person to mind for me to ask for help. I hesitated for personal reasons, but finally reached out.
My sister quickly agreed to help me get on an exercise and eating plan while being my personal cheer leader, coach, and encourager.
Over the last 10 weeks I have been determined to change my body and my eating patterns. It has not been easy! There are days where I make mistakes and excuses so I can have what I want.
The amazing thing is that those moments have lessened over time, and when I do struggle I pray for relief and deliverance.
God never fails to meet me in my mess.
I’m not where I want to be, my body and mind are works in progress. But I’ve shifted my gaze and no longer feel trapped by food and the hold I allowed it to have on me.
The Lord doesn’t want any of us stewing in our mess. The purpose of Jesus dying on the cross was so we could declare FREEDOM over the things that hold us hostage. He’s watched us wrestle with our fleshly desires and seen what those do to us. He can guide you out of any hole you are in and give you more peace than anything else.
He will turn you around.
Thought to Prayerfully Consider? What mountain do you continue to circle? Or, how has God changed the direction of your life?